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Monday, March 19, 2012

Eucharisteo

For time away.
Coming unplugged.
All for the sake of a Boy.
Who needs fun like air.
Water drops hanging liquid orbs off those endless lashes.
Him smiling all gums and teeth everywhere.
This is what twelve looks like.
Remember?
For focused time on the two youngest.
Hanging off my arm and...
"Thank you for this, Mom.  Thank you, forever."
Coming home again.
Knowing every country bump on our lane as we arrive in the dark hours of morning.
For that feeling of home.
The way the laundry looks familiar lumped in soft piles on the floor of the mudroom.
A soldier making pita bread in my kitchen.
His hands full of dough, and us talking and laughing.
Just that I got to watch my three oldest worship God together.
Her voice singing Jesus.
A Return.
The SilentDeep on bass, and the Kind and Compassionate on the drums.
The rhythm he keeps, a steady cry to be noticed, singled out, loved.
Me just overcome with the honor of knowing them.
Bowing low at the throne to confess, again, all my inadequacies.
Falling short.
The StrongSoft getting her baby lambs, and sharing the adventure with dear friends.
The two of us sitting in the darkened loam of the shed at six this morning.
Bottle feeding and talking, and her kissing them on the head.
Blonde beauty dressed in her dad's carhart jacket and sitting on a five gallon bucket in her pajamas.
And the spring snow that flies these thick flakes of white wonder.
The sky close enough to touch.
Staying up most of the night to finish a good book.
Coffee.
Missing my son gone back for school.
Holding him tight and close in my prayers.
All this eucharisteo.
And for writing.
Because it holds the world still long enough.

For me,

Bernadette

6 comments:

  1. "Because it holds the world still long enough." Good, good, good. All good. Your words are stirring.

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  2. As a fellow writer, I know you understand. Thanks, Crissy. Grace to your feet today.

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  3. Thanks for splashing me with God's goodness today. I hope you don't mind if I wade around a bit to get to know you. This looks like a refreshing place to dip into all things good..

    Splashin'
    Sarah

    http://justsarahdawn.blogspot.com/

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  4. Sarah, your comment has me staring at the screen with this huge goofy smile on my face. You have drenched me in joy and it feels... GREAT!

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  5. So, so good to have your words whispering to my soul again! Welcome back, Dear Friend. There are so many things on your list this week that wring my heart with joy--I can't even pick out favorites. Thankful for His blessings on your family this week--and praying for your heart as you adjust to your son being gone again.

    Wait--I take it back--my favorite is that last line--"for me." Oh, how I know the hard journey of learning to give thanks for the gift of oneself. Those two words hold a lifetime of meaning.

    Love to you tonight, Friend.

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